Hi,
and welcome to AdiosBarbie.com! I'm Pia, and I live in San
Francisco. I was born in Mexico and grew up in California,
the daughter of an American mother and a Mexican father.
As a child, I was shuttled between countries as a result
of my parents' divorce. I lived in Santa Monica, but spent
my childhood summers in Mexico City visiting my dad and
his family.
My struggles with body image began with
an exposure to the hot Mexican sun. Every August,
my dad's side of the family convened in Acapulco for a week
long vacation. Their easily tanned skin afforded them the
luxury of playful hours without protection. I wasn't so
lucky. My red hair and fair skin betrayed my Mexican heritage.
This barred me from any activity in the sun unless I wore
a cumbersome long-sleeved shirt, a silly hat and goopy opaque
sunscreen. I often sat in the pool jealously watching my
dark-skinned sister frolic around unrestricted by ultraviolet
armor. I felt extremely self-conscious - - and far from
"cute."
At
age 13, I was determined to get a tan. Instead, I ended
up in the hospital with Lupus, a hereditary disease that
primarily affects black women and Latinas. Lupus is triggered
by an overexposure to the sun. Struggling against the illness
as a teenager, I grew to hate my body for not functioning
properly. This grew into a hatred of myself for not having
boobs (a result of being ill), for being "too short," and
for my thick Mexican waist and short forehead. The only
pride I felt was that the Lupus left me abnormally thin.
Junior
year in high school, beyond the expectations of my doctors
I got well. My transition from high school to college was
both a physical and a mental metamorphosis. I felt indebted
to my body for giving me a second chance. I wanted to celebrate
with everyone, and began to attract people through my openness
and optimism. I sought out a community of friends that were
open to discussing their differences, and drew upon them
for support and inspiration.
Today,
I don't force my body to be something that it is not. I
no longer hate it for not looking, feeling or performing
like everyone else's body. I accept its limitations and
I'm learning to embrace its differences. But it is a process.
At the very least, I've learned that nothing is wrong with
me. Instead, there is something wrong with a society that
distracts girls and women from success by bombarding us
with impossible ideals of perfection.
AdiosBarbie.com
is how I fight the recurring feelings of alienation from
my body, my culture and other women. This site reflects
a beauty and strength I derive from an appreciation for
diversity--not appearance. It is truly an online "community"
and I hope it serves as a source of inspiration to you.
Pia
Guerrero
Contributing Editor