I'm excited to be part of Adiosbarbie.com not just
because I used to give my Barbies punk
haircuts, but because I want women to feel at
home in their bodies.
I
was a pretty skinny kid, and my body was never anything
that crossed my mind when I was growing up. It was just
something that helped me swim, climb trees, and play kickball.
But when I hit junior high and puberty hadn't yet hit me,
I started to scrutinize my body. While my classmates were
growing taller and sprouting curves, I was still wearing
shapeless corduroys from Sears' boys department. I felt
like the other girls had become women, while I was relegated
to the Land of the Playtex AAA-cup.
Of
course, I eventually filled out in all the "right"
places. Still, that didn't solve my body hangups. I thought
my breasts were too small, my legs were too muscular, and
my belly was too flat. And so on. It sounds silly, but I'd
look at women in magazines and see certain features that
mirrored my own body. "Hmm, I have a small waist like
that model's, but her legs are smoother than mine,"
I'd think. I figured that if I had thinness in common with
a model, then it was only a matter of time and effort before
I, too, looked like the rest of her. We all know how feasible
that is.
Some
people might call me lucky: I never dieted, and I can't
remember the last time I stepped on a scale. But I compared
myself to the idealized female body anyway. Finally, during
my junior year of college, I realized that reading fashion
magazines and watching E! pre-award programming didn't make
me feel good about myself. So I cancelled my subscriptions,
turned off the tube, and made a goal to de-celeb my media
intake. And what do you know? I'm feeling
a lot better about myself now that Gwyneth and Kate are
out of the picture.
I
still struggle to accept my body sometimes, especially now
as it moves toward a more womanly figure. But instead of
obsessing over the shape of my thighs, I try to focus on
the things that make life great: reading, writing, playing
with my ferocious kitten, exploring all that the world has
to offer, and having adventures with my friends. Like our
editor Pia said, it's a process -- but I know the destination
is worth it.
Pass
the Krispy Kremes,
Annie
Tomlin
Producer/Editor, Squirrel Emperor